"Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with."
"Well-behaved women seldom make history."
~Laurel Thatcher Ulrich
~ Gloria Steinem
I get these ideas in my head. They have this way of taking over. They say our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. I can’t say that I completely agree with that. I think most of us have no freaking clue the power that we carry. We never even get that far. It’s hard for me to grasp it sometimes. I get caught in this weird, confusing, gray area of what it means to be a woman today.
I have been told that people will not take me seriously. There are times when I have spoken with conviction and my voice seems to become nothing more than a faint breeze. I have been told that people will judge me for looking more feminine, and thus, not smart. I have been told that I will be given the opportunity to be listened to out of courtesy alone. Thank you for humoring me. I have been told that I need to dress very seriously to compensate for my youth and femininity. I have been outwardly objectified by men even when in a baggy sweatshirt and sunglasses. I have been blatantly laughed at when sharing my goals and ambitions. I have been told the duties of a proper wife. I have been judged for not meeting these standards to perfection on top of holding two jobs, completing my doctorate, attempting to maintain a household, a marriage, and my own self-care for the sake of sanity.
My head spins.
As I struggle to find my footing as I step into this world, these are some of the things I have become faced with. I react. I grow annoyed. Stubborn. I want to push back. I want to say this is unfair. I want something to change. I want an address for whoever set these insane rules so I can send them a very angry letter or leave a flaming bag of dog poo on their front door. I can’t help but feel that this my opportunity in my life. This my chance to silence the voices of inadequacy and embrace the power of one. One
silly, little, delicate, cute, smart, put together, persistent, idealistic, woman.
Live the life that YOU imagine.
WHATEVER that entails.
All my Love,